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I need motivation.

I'm losing hope.

EAT, SLEEP AND DRINK BIOLOGY!!!!

It's skills assessment & practical test on monday.
Talk about monday blues.

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HELLO ALL, YOU REGULAR & RANDOM READERS OF THIS

LITTLE SPACE OF MINE.I WILL BE UPDATING
SOON!

I am being chased after the 1500 words essay right now which i am gonna get started on, the 2 presentations and Practical Assessments!

Till i get away from these menaces, so long goodbye!

25th November.
The day i have been waiting for, anticipating and looking forward to be over.

SO LIKE, FINALLY!
I AM SO HAPPY!!!

I am of mixed emotions after Child's Play ended today.
Elated, proud, disappointed and relieved (RELIEVED, IT'S OVER!)


I get feedback, with some saying "Congratulations! your event had been a success!" or, "Well DONE! We enjoyed ourselves!" or "Child's Play had been a smashing success!"

It feels so good to hear and feels weird at the same time.
Feels weird because i am somehow not convinced otherwise.

But..

it feels good that at the end of the day, i see the Children with smiles on their faces, enjoying their candyfloss with glee, recieving their toys with happy faces.

it feels good that at the end of the day, everyone who helped out, be it the volunteers for facils, games stations and the committee enjoyed themselves.

it feels good that at the end of the day, everyone in the committee worked together. and i get to give them a hug, :D

it feels good that at the end of the day, it is all over!

after all these while, the past few months of effort for this external event, i had made myself stressed out, shed many tears, been sleep deprived, had bad temper,been too busy to eat proper meals and been running off during breaks to get this and that done.

I never thought, that i would go this far.
Upon being given the role, i had wanted to backed out and not take up the responsibility.I dismissed the thoughts away, not wanting to embarrass myself and be known as someone who backed off from her responsibilities.

Many at a time, i wonder to myself "Why am i putting so much effort and time into this? What's all this for?I don't even get to benefit from doing all this!". I would cry, with despair that i have been lousy in managing and getting this and that done. I shed tears, when i was so stressed that we were running out of time.

I don't know what drives me, to continue all the way. From the beginning, i had told Elyn & Mardiana that i would be leaving them to responsibilities and go Missing-in-Action. Which didn't happen of course lah.

That's why i was so happy when the Proposal got approved, after the 1st proposal got rejected. and i got annoyed when Wen Yang said "What for so happy? Approved only mah. Still got execution of the proposal"

Tsk tsk, killjoy lah!

and and, all this while, especially before the proposal got approved, i got temperamental. and my emotions are like rollercoaster. Very high one moment, then after that very angry.

Oh well!

It's over now.
and everything would not have been possible if not for everyone!

and i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU too everyone in the committee, especially to Elyn, Wani
and Nas! Wouldn't have known what to do if not for them!

I AM HAPPY!

Was at ION today again.
I've been at ION the past two days, been in town for the past two weeks, i think i'm getting a hang and sick of it already. Anything new?

I was late in meeting Kenneth & Prawny!
Eeks!
Bad habit is here again!

Had lunch at Swensens, again. It's not always that we get a discount there! and one of the waiters who served us yesterday when i was with the class, looked at me as if he was thinking that i looked familiar to him. Hahaha!

and i ordered mocha almond fudge for my single scoop of ice cream. One of my favourites! But somehow, their mocha almond fudge tasted weird, which is a boo boo! and we had apple crumble, i would still prefer banana crumble anytime.

we walked around ION, and went to this high end bookshop at the top floor which had a staircase that leads upstairs to it accessories. The place was so cool, with lots of lovely pens and papers! and there's this Elvis Presley birthday card, perfect for Darren! Hahaha!

Walked around, trying to look for a billabong shop. I wanna buy a new wallet! I guess i could only go to vivo and tiong bahru for the wallet i want! and we went to Burberry, Kenneth want to check out the Burberry wallets. and we sprayed on some perfume onto out hands which i could still smell till now. Hah!

and oh, we met Hui min! and Vanessa from band!

the flash was too bright!

had to leave by 5.30pm for external event meeting in school! the day was short, we had wanted to watch a movie but time forbids again!

Class gathering @ ION's Swensens!

it was great to see everyone again after 2 months long of break!
and so we talked and shared our attachment experiences.


school is in a few days time.
I'm rather not ready for it yet. Still in the holiday mood, hah!


HURRAH TO ME!
while my batch are all in year 2, i am finally moving on to my Semester 2 of my freshman year!

this semester's time table and new groupings are different now.
Oh, i gave feedback to our mentor. Not that i really dislike the new groupings but i dislike the fact that she grouped us into different groupings when she do not personally knows us. well, although she had pasted our pictures on her wall like mugshots on a sheriff's posters. Hahahaha!



School, school!
I also foresee semester 2 is going to be fast and rushed and busy!

There is external event, the open house, the exams, more work projects ( $ $).
The year 2009 will zoom by in no time!

I AM SO SAD!

No.1 :I did not get to take a lot of pictures of Ward 64 (As in, you know the signboard outside the ward which says WARD 64)

No.2 : I did not get to take pictures with my favourite people like Shaqila, Farhat and one of the ENs and SNs!

No. 3: I am going to miss my patients!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


So the last day was but uneventful and saddening. And oh, I would say it was a slack day too! Everyone's eyes were gleaming and shouting "It's the last day today!!!!!"


Last day, Friday, Afternoon Shift

I would usually be at the bus stop by 11.45am and take the 11.50am bus and arrive half an hour early at the hospital. But on that day, i took the 12.10pm bus because i was craving for some ice cold milk tea. Throughout this attachment, i have been drinking milk tea like A LOT!

The bus stopped at Shaqila's stop and i smiled thinking to myself that Shaqila must have been there already. A few moments later, i saw her on the bus. Haha! Shaqila is like my opposite cubicle, my bus ride companion home w/ Farhat and i always meet her on the bus, and for the last two days, we had our break together!

Anyway, We were supposed to be out there doing work at 1pm but we went for our Case Study in equipment room. Everyone was all excited! We stayed there chatting and chatting, picture taking till 4pm! and at 4pm, it was breaktime! So we technically started work at 5pm!

There was new admission/transfer in my cubicle and she was a nice lady with nice daughters. I fed her and had a chat. Nice lady, too bad it was my last!

Last day was sad and uneventful because Farhat was in the morning shift and there were only Meiman, Hassan, Shaqila and i who were on Afternoon shift. By 9 o'clock, we said our goodbyes to our friends (patients), left a card for Judit the SN, had our daily dose of Mr.Bean and left home!

That's it!
3 WEEKS OF ATTACHMENT WAS THAT FAST!
It went like, WHOOSH!

I am gonna miss NUH. My patients and my newfound friends whom i've never seen in lecture hall before.

NUH seems more cooler then SGH now.

Pictures which were blur and few. DISAPPOINTED LAR!

Our sexy legs caught the attention of the photgrapher

Ward 64 :D

Second take!

My CI is more cooler than yours.
Like seriously, she is such a hip and cool CI.

Siew Yi, Beverley and Melissa with Shikin.

Farhat / Shikkin / Atikah
I took a picture with Farhat and tiptoed beside him and he tiptoed too!
Hahaha, crappy!

Melissa / Serene / Siew Yi

The 3 weeks had been enjoyable.
I thought i would dread it!

love

grannies & grandpas can be real cute & amusing you know.
:)


But, after a week of being in the same cubicle, i have been assigned to a different cubicle. I am =(
Not because my current cubicle has more to do. But i would miss my patients. One of them said "Aiyo, when you go, i have no friend already.."

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I should be sleeping now.
I'm so tired, my eye is tearing.


I thought i can finally have a whole day to rest and to just to laze at home this Saturday. I was wrong! Eeks! Going to school for the SINDA Excellence. A month ago, i thought it would be nice to do some duty during the 3 weeks of attachment.

I am shaggedz.

9th October coming soon!
and 10th October, what do i do? I have Work Assignment / Out with new found friends / Chalet with CLS people and the next day would be Wedding & Work Assignment.

and that last week of holiday before school starts, i have it all planned out!
GO OUT WITH PEOPLE!
I MISS MY FRIENDS!

I feel disconnected with the outside world of my friends. I'm too lazy/tired to reply sms-es or to return missed calls. and of course, i'm too tired to do the proposal!

Why are you still in my dreams?

Hello Kidney!
and so the picture says it. My ward kinda specializes in renal cases and sowhathaveyou.


i want to say..


the past two days have been G R E A T!
and so i conclude,
I very very much enjoy my attachment!


Well of course, minus the negativities like being treated invisible, being looked down upon doctors/staff nurses, doing things that i would never do before and all.

but!
I feel a sense of satisfaction. Although it has been what, a few days only and i feel a bond with the patients i have been taking care of. Some are mean, some are funny, some are cute, some are pitiful. While some are really in need of care.

It feels so good to hear the patients say 'Thank you' to you though they are weak when they said it and it sounds so sincere. It feels good to see them smile at you with appreciation. It feels good they trust you to care for them. It feels good that i am building rapport with them.

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On Wednesday i was on morning shift. and i was shagged like shitz. The next two days which was Thursday and today, Friday, i was on afternoon shift. Did i mention that i love afternoon shifts?
I get to wake up late, get to reach on time, the workload is manageable comparable to in the morning and lastly, it is so cooling to go home at night!

and OMG!
THERE ARE HANDSOME AND HOT DOCTORS!
yes, handsome!
but i would like to smack the files on their faces one day. They're kinda proud and haughty.
Doctor so what? I am a nurse!


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Building rapport.

'I think I felt a tinge of "nurse-ness" in me today. It really is quite fulfilling to see the patients under your care being discharged, albeit a little sad because you have already developed a bond with them.'

Jeanette

I agree with her. I feel sad that i might not be able to see the patients again after the weekend because they might be discharged already. But on the other hand, i feel happy for them that they can be discharged already. I'm gonna miss them.

A week ago, this unfamiliar lady requested to add me on facebook. I asked her, like i normally would if i know her. Apparently, she was my kindergarten to primary 2 classmate! So Lisa had scanned and uploaded our K1 class photo.

When i left the Philippines for Singapore officially at the age of 8, my classmates had no idea what happened to me or no news of me at all till now. I left without a goodbye or a word you see. and i, of course literally forgotten them. That was a freakin' 12 years ago. I only had a vague memory of a few close friends like Andre, Nicole and Abigail. and i remember always being the first to arrive in school. While waiting, i would practise on my penmanship book. That explains the neat hand writing eh :P

K1

12 long years ago.
Try and spot me :D

Not having any news of me, Lisa searched for me in fb. And tada! I was reunited with everyone, though i don't remember them at all and i bet they don't remember me too.

Well, i just think it is so cool to have found my long lost classmates who are miles and miles away in the philippines. I don't even have their names or any inkling idea of how they would look like now. (Thank God for Facebook and its pictures)

I think if i were in the philippines on a visit, i would probably be able to recognize them if i do bump into any of them!

What would life have been if i had stayed on instead?

EXAMS ARE OVER!

Can't say that i have been motivated to focus and study for the exams. but i'm satisfied with the papers so far. EXCEPT for the last paper though. Oh wells!

Now can relax and my conscience won't be bugging me anymore. i'm still reluctant whether i should change my blog skin. i love this skin/layout. but kinda getting sick of it. I have my eye on one though. hmmmmm.

Maybe i'll type on and blog of the past two weeks another time. Especially with last night's drama. Till then! but before that,

HAPPY HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY KAIYING

<3 <3 <3

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY OLIVIA!!

half empty, half full

fill me up.

look at my lovely socks!
i have three more of this!
cool right?
:D

It's a stay home Saturday!

I have so much to do, did not know where to start at first! But phew! I finally sat down, sorted things out and did what i have to do. I think i sent out a lot of emails today. It felt like i was working in an office, minus the business suit.

Meanwhile, i while blog as in detail of the past few days.
I AM BURIED IN THE AMOUNT OF WORK TO BE DONE!

I am dig, digging myself out!

Today is just not my day.

I woke up in a rush again because i had pressed the snooze button and woke up an hour later than i was supposed to do. What a bummer can.

Woke up one hour later still not so bad, but situation got worse when i did not like what i had planned to wear at first and i had to get back in the house to change again. Then i realised i was really late for our group's discussion (approximately half an hour late), so i took taxi again. ARGH!

Then come presentation time. I was somehow excited for the psychology topic we were doing because it was emotions such an interesting topic. weeks ago, i was doing so much reading up and research on it yet the presentation was postponed and my brain cells seemed to have died out, and the amount of other work we have to do just prevents me from concentrating on psychology and everything is so last minute now, even as i did the slide editing. brain seems to be not working today, lack of sleep?!

so today's presentation, i am so frustrated because i could have done so so much better. COULD HAVE DONE SO MUCH BETTER, BOOO :'/ although some said it was good, but i think i am too.. perfectionist on this? well, considering the amount of work put in, it'd be a disappointment that i kinda blanked out just now!

Then i rushed for work. It's been ages ago since i went to the office, say 3 months ago? Anyway, ust came on time for briefing and we have to do an on-site survey. Definitely not my cup of tea. It is not as easy as the non on-site one. Would not want to come if not for aunt Nancy. But at least i got one succesful interview- a 1st year poly guy who was reluctant at first to to do the interview :D

and now i'm in an uber dilemma.
WITH SUCH RESPONSIBILITY GIVEN, HOW TO QUIT?!


and urgh, my uneven stack & messy clothes makes me more frustrated. How i wish i can abracadabra it to be neater and do away with untidyness. and why do bathroom/washrooms get dirty so easily, wonder?!?! i hate the sight of a dirty toilet and i always make sure it is clean and now it's back to a dirty toiley. i'm too tired to bother!

guess it's all about the emotions eh?

but then on the other hand, looking on the brighter side, ONE PRESENTATION DOWN, ONE MORE TO GO!

ONLY ONE MORE, ONE MORE!

picture credits: Lynna

Happy Independence Day Philippines.

I'm off to camp.
"STUDY BREAK" has come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We, girls in the lab!
:D

Picture credits: Aeen & Haleeza

this is what you do with shopping trolleys.