25th November.
The day i have been waiting for, anticipating and looking forward to be over.

SO LIKE, FINALLY!
I AM SO HAPPY!!!

I am of mixed emotions after Child's Play ended today.
Elated, proud, disappointed and relieved (RELIEVED, IT'S OVER!)


I get feedback, with some saying "Congratulations! your event had been a success!" or, "Well DONE! We enjoyed ourselves!" or "Child's Play had been a smashing success!"

It feels so good to hear and feels weird at the same time.
Feels weird because i am somehow not convinced otherwise.

But..

it feels good that at the end of the day, i see the Children with smiles on their faces, enjoying their candyfloss with glee, recieving their toys with happy faces.

it feels good that at the end of the day, everyone who helped out, be it the volunteers for facils, games stations and the committee enjoyed themselves.

it feels good that at the end of the day, everyone in the committee worked together. and i get to give them a hug, :D

it feels good that at the end of the day, it is all over!

after all these while, the past few months of effort for this external event, i had made myself stressed out, shed many tears, been sleep deprived, had bad temper,been too busy to eat proper meals and been running off during breaks to get this and that done.

I never thought, that i would go this far.
Upon being given the role, i had wanted to backed out and not take up the responsibility.I dismissed the thoughts away, not wanting to embarrass myself and be known as someone who backed off from her responsibilities.

Many at a time, i wonder to myself "Why am i putting so much effort and time into this? What's all this for?I don't even get to benefit from doing all this!". I would cry, with despair that i have been lousy in managing and getting this and that done. I shed tears, when i was so stressed that we were running out of time.

I don't know what drives me, to continue all the way. From the beginning, i had told Elyn & Mardiana that i would be leaving them to responsibilities and go Missing-in-Action. Which didn't happen of course lah.

That's why i was so happy when the Proposal got approved, after the 1st proposal got rejected. and i got annoyed when Wen Yang said "What for so happy? Approved only mah. Still got execution of the proposal"

Tsk tsk, killjoy lah!

and and, all this while, especially before the proposal got approved, i got temperamental. and my emotions are like rollercoaster. Very high one moment, then after that very angry.

Oh well!

It's over now.
and everything would not have been possible if not for everyone!

and i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU too everyone in the committee, especially to Elyn, Wani
and Nas! Wouldn't have known what to do if not for them!

I AM HAPPY!

forgetting

i had wanted to come to school today a wee bit earlier than of the supposedly time we were to report for the NHLC event so i can go sit in the lectures and see everyone. but i was delayed by my laziness and my disastrous try in cooking chicken soup to which my brother laughed at and labelled it as the rubbish my sister cooked. hah, brothers. nevertheless my soup tasted good okay!

arrived in school just on time, but no on time to see my former classmates. so met shu hui, siew cheng and her friend at mac. then i found time in between to sneak out and go sit in one of the lectures they were having only to be called back a few minutes later. paisey ah! the everyone was waiting for me while i ran the great run from blk Q to blk E.

NHLC event- gosh, so many people at the padang as expected. people from all kinds of schools were there. even queenstownians. i saw VIJAY, syahidah, amanda, charmaine, justin.. and a few others. it was a boring big event which seems to be kinda a little disorganized. BUT! we get to have a movie gift voucher, free yoshinoya meal and milo drinks! we eventually left the place and headed to raffles and bugis instead where melody gave shu hui and i a treat to tom's pallete ice cream. thanks melody! the ice cream they serve comes in a variety of fascinating flavours, haha! should go and have a try at their ice cream there! too bad i didn't bring my camera. pictures another day!
i'm sadddd.
discouraged, disappinted.
i can't help but feel that way. but oh wells. i shall forget those and learn the lessons. and shooo the negativities away.

everyone is at sentosa to enjoy the weekend, while i have the liberty of having the whole house to myself on this lazy saturday. the sky is no longer gloomy, and the weather's just perfect to be a nerd and be with the books.

i'd rather stay at home today than spend the day at sentosa only to come home feeling exhausted. it was a busy week, with valentine's day, the chinese new year preparations, noticeboard and tests, i've been kept busy. but at last, yesterday we loosened up a bit.

i woke up late yesterday morning, i did not hear my alarm clock ring, but i was surprised that it was swtich off. weird, my sister told me i had unknowingly switched it off when i was in a sleepy state. so it was late when i reached the bus stop, but i waited for so long for the stupid. i wanted to take a taxi but none were available. in the end, my bus came, two of it. i was mad with the bus for arriving so late, i wanted to glare at the driver. just when i was worrying whether i'd be late for school, i met huixuan on the bus. and also peixian and jiamin at the bus stop!

i was relieved i arrived in school just on time, and i decided to let marion do the cookie. i was scared that i'd screwed it up again!

then after our lessons, we had the chinese new year concert. it seems that every year, it's the same programme for chinese new year. but the most entertaining was the gym people and the malay dance. at least it's something a little different and grabbed the audience's attention.

many seniors came back, including kaiying and sherlin. long time since we last seen each other. we met up with the others and exchanged valentine's day gifts! then we went to have a chat with mdm nur laila, she's funny and nice. although she may be too strict at times, it'll be for our good.

so i left the school with ana and beth for vivocity. we should have went straight to book our tickets instead of having our lunch first. in the end the tickets were sold out, and so we took the train to tiong bahru. met pearlyn on the way there. when we were reaching the platform, the door was about to be closed, i rushed in, thinking both of them were behind me. but i turned around to see them outside the closed doors of the train! haha! so i've to wait for them in the next station.

we booked the tickets, sat at the stone table outside old chang kee to drink our sweet talk and studied maths. it wasn't that distracting although many people were passing by and the wind was making it comfortable to sit there.


then it was time to watch the movie we've been waiting and excited for, epic movie. but alas, it was a disappointment. wasted $9.50 on its cheap humour and its lame scenes. it wasn't as good and as funny as we had expected. it should be NC16, and not for the eyes of young children.

so that was my friday, i've to go have my lunch now. my stomach is asking for food. and hurray for the two days of holiday! boo, for the amount of homework given!