25th November.
The day i have been waiting for, anticipating and looking forward to be over.
SO LIKE, FINALLY!
I AM SO HAPPY!!!
I am of mixed emotions after Child's Play ended today.
Elated, proud, disappointed and relieved (RELIEVED, IT'S OVER!)
I get feedback, with some saying "Congratulations! your event had been a success!" or, "Well DONE! We enjoyed ourselves!" or "Child's Play had been a smashing success!"
It feels so good to hear and feels weird at the same time.
Feels weird because i am somehow not convinced otherwise.
But..
it feels good that at the end of the day, i see the Children with smiles on their faces, enjoying their candyfloss with glee, recieving their toys with happy faces.
it feels good that at the end of the day, everyone who helped out, be it the volunteers for facils, games stations and the committee enjoyed themselves.
it feels good that at the end of the day, everyone in the committee worked together. and i get to give them a hug, :D
it feels good that at the end of the day, it is all over!
after all these while, the past few months of effort for this external event, i had made myself stressed out, shed many tears, been sleep deprived, had bad temper,been too busy to eat proper meals and been running off during breaks to get this and that done.
I never thought, that i would go this far.
Upon being given the role, i had wanted to backed out and not take up the responsibility.I dismissed the thoughts away, not wanting to embarrass myself and be known as someone who backed off from her responsibilities.
Many at a time, i wonder to myself "Why am i putting so much effort and time into this? What's all this for?I don't even get to benefit from doing all this!". I would cry, with despair that i have been lousy in managing and getting this and that done. I shed tears, when i was so stressed that we were running out of time.
I don't know what drives me, to continue all the way. From the beginning, i had told Elyn & Mardiana that i would be leaving them to responsibilities and go Missing-in-Action. Which didn't happen of course lah.
That's why i was so happy when the Proposal got approved, after the 1st proposal got rejected. and i got annoyed when Wen Yang said "What for so happy? Approved only mah. Still got execution of the proposal"
Tsk tsk, killjoy lah!
and and, all this while, especially before the proposal got approved, i got temperamental. and my emotions are like rollercoaster. Very high one moment, then after that very angry.
Oh well!
It's over now.
and everything would not have been possible if not for everyone!
and i wanna say a BIG THANK YOU too everyone in the committee, especially to Elyn, Wani
and Nas! Wouldn't have known what to do if not for them!
I AM HAPPY!
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