For someone who has felt so strong it's amazing i'm completely gone
hold on it's tragic stumblin through all this static

okay, so maybe when i said earlier that my d&t folio was over and done with, maybe i wasn't so sure of it myself.

people who knows me know that i'm the kind of person who'd do things that willl be perfect to me- particularly the neatness of my work. they call me perfectionist to which i shrugged it off.

late last night, i realise that this should have been done, that should not been there.. then i'll re-do stuff again. so my weakness of being perfect in my neatness caused me to firstly, re-bind my folio, re-do my folio and submit it late. deadline was 3.30pm. gah, i was then in a panic state. although i knew what to do, i just froze there.i think that was when nicole walked over to me and gave a nice red heart shaped balloon. that was nice of her. thank you :) and eventually, i submitted my folio with a sinking feeling that i won't get my A!

on a lighter note, it feels happier that i won't be walking around with a big black folio in my arms and and and, i'll be able to get a nice good long sleep!
YAY!

goodbye to d&t folio!!
no more!
YAY!

and i'm sorry

i'm so happy, i'm so happy!

D&T is OVER and DONE WITH!
OVER and DONE WITH!


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on the other hand, we had our english prelim papers today. paper one was oky for me but paper 2.. i'm not so confident with it :(
tomorrow will be mother tongue papers, im just so happy d&t's over =DD

i probably won't have the time to update on the day itself. but i'd like to wish..

a HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KAIYING!

we've shared lots crazy crazy crazy times together, the happy moments and moments when we were down and through it all, i'd like to thank you for being a great friend and the motivation!
<3

guess what, guess what?

my artefact's finally done!
haha, yes i know it's quite late and just finished it at the last minute. although i was one of the few who had get things started, i ended up finishing it late cause of poor planning :( and now that's it done, i feel so happy!

because of that d&t, i've missed out on lots of stuff, especially sleep. urgh, i hadn't had a good night's sleep for the past two weeks. i've got dark circles around my eyes and quennie said i looked okay with it cause i had big eyes! haha!

on the other hand, i've became closer to the guys than the girls as most of them are in f&n, art? so anyway, last saturday we were the last to leave the school and mr.imran agreed to give us a lift. so the five of us squeezed in his car. with junaidi in the front seat and jozua, zul, yusuf and i squeezed in at the back like sardines. but it was hilarious lah, cause yusuf had to sit on jozua and both of them looked so constipated.haha! reminds me of that time we had a lift from ms.chee and we had to squeeze in too and kenneth sat on asyraf!

i'm feeling so full right now, i feel like my stomach has grown into a balloon like shape. nah, i'm exaggerating. just went on an eating marathon with gabriel, kaiying, guo wei and jacob. there was confusion at first on where to have our once in a while dinner together and after gabriel's whining to eat Xiao long pao (is the spelling correct?) we missed the chance to eat at rajah inn. major disappointment can! majority didn't wanna have Xiao long pao, so when we came back at rajah inn, there was a long queue waiting for us!

so in the end, we eventually cabbed all the way to clementi to have SAKURA! we were so hungry, we went to have our food right away!

it was a good time take a break and relax after a disappointing day. although only my folio did not disappoint me =D

so i didn't go to school today, but did went in the afternoon. some were surprised to see me there. so anyway, glad i did cause i managed to do a lot of my folio stuff, happy with it =D
ah, i'm not gonna have a good night's sleep again tonight. got mock test and d&t to rush. i so wish d&t will be over and done with soon. i was so angry with myself today. i was in a frenzied state after mr.imran keep reminding us of the time we have left. panic until i forgot and don't know what im doing. there was an instance that i joining two plastics together and rong sheng shouted ''eh fire, fire'' at ziyang. i merely thought that ziyang was so careless, left his workpiece there to burn. it was only when ziyang told me that it was mine. what mr.imran said made things better lah. he said we could submit our stuff on monday. thank God!

gah, i thought i could finish up my artefact by 5.30pm and skip school tomorrow, which i have never done in my four years of secondary school life before. i only need half an hour more, and i could go telling everyone happily that i've finished that artefect of mine. i only need half an hour and i was short of that precious time!

so anyway, i was reminded by a friend that i cannot skip school tomorrow because there's mock practical.so i'll try and skip school on friday instead to do my d&t folio, which i very much would like to see completed and get rid of. i'm sick of plastics and metals you know.

i'm surprised to see that there are a number of people who visits this space of mine in the internet although i thought it was long forgotten after i've 'closed down' my blog. so i'm now more motivated to update! haha!

till then!
till then when i do away with the time i spend in the workshops, i'll be hopefully back feeking better!

a few more days, yet we have so much to do, so little time.

a few more months, the clock is ticking and time catches up with us.
a few more words exchanged, nothing has changed.
i guess, time is what we all really need.
more doses of it.


will chords that were broken vibrate once more?

so i guess i've just went on a roller coaster ride.
which had thankfully just ended (hopefully it really did) and left me feeling lighter. although i know i'm still not myself.

but really, God really answers prayers =D

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i just had a really long and tiring day today. i think i could hit the sack and just sleep and sleep!

i started the day with only 2 hours of sleep, and i felt like a walking zombie because i had panda eyes and had a headache! it had been quite some time since i stayed up late you see.

maybe this is why i like screwed up my oral. my O level oral eh! well, not really screwed it lah, but i know i didn't do to well. which is so, ahh wth!

while i was waiting for my turn, i was wondering why i did not feel nervous or anything. i was all prepared with the answers in my head and it was only when i was facing the examiners then i began to feel jittery and nervy. and i think i talked too much cause the examiners said ''okay okay, enough.. let's go on''.

haha! there was also an instance when i told her i liked watching acrobatics (which is so untrue okay!) because i liked the way they moved their bodies and all?! they laughed can! it was only a while later then i realised what i was really talking about.

i don't know how i'm gonna finsih up my d&t folio on time but if i really did succesfuly finish it up, i think i'd be so deprived of sleep. wish me luck in successfully finishing it up eh!

i'd like to get away,
get away from all this.

today marks the end of the week, and i'm glad it's over.

i was down the whole week, it started off pretty badly, and ended with a twist.
sometimes things that happened can be unexpected and irony at times i guess?

i haven't felt so low, like really low since don't know when. but i know i've got to snap out of it. you know, i've been coming home, listen to emo songs and just stare at my work. can't find the energy to do was to be done.

ah! i know, it shouldn't be.
but soon, i'll snap out of it!

and what are friends for when you need them?
they help you of course!

thank you, you know who you are lah.
especially to kaiying for sending me that 2kb long message which really started my day with a smile, it helped! and to nicole, loved that card you gave, very meaningful!

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and with just one week left, we are to finish our d&t stuff. gosh, seriously can't wait for it to be over and done with.

and i made an intersting thing out of an acrylic. (i find it interesting lah) i actually forgot about an acrylic( a type of plastic) which i left in the oven and remembered it only 5 or 8 minutes later. and guess what, it was so cool, it didn't totally got burned and turned into ashes but you could see some or rather many bubbles.

i found it so cool that i wanted to make a keychain out of it. so i drilled a hole and in the process, it flew off because it hardened, and hit my face -.-''

and oh, i just remembered that exactly a year ago was our school's 50th anniversary celebrations and it was a much anticipated day and a memorable one. and it was han sin's birthday too, happy birthday!

gah.
so here's my blog, 'opened' up again.
need an outlet to vent out to.

days been a drag.
going to school seems a drag.
being at home seems a drag.

..

gah.
okay i shall stop sounding depressed with my words.

only a few more days left before we've to hand in that darn d&t folio, was rather confident with it at first thne i don't know what i'm doing. haha. on the other hand, i can't wait for the deadline to be over soon, then i'll free from the d&t lessons we've been going to everyday.so looking forward to that

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2C'05!

i'll update more next time. wasn't so detailed today!
till then!