And I'm alright

Standing in the streetlights here

Is this meant for me

My time on the outside is over

We don't know how you're spending all of your days

Knowing that love isn't here

You see the pictures

But you don't know their names

Cause love isn't here

And I can't do this by myself

All of these problems, they're all in your head

And I can't be somebody else

You took something perfect

And painted it red.

grannies & grandpas can be real cute & amusing you know.
:)


But, after a week of being in the same cubicle, i have been assigned to a different cubicle. I am =(
Not because my current cubicle has more to do. But i would miss my patients. One of them said "Aiyo, when you go, i have no friend already.."

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I should be sleeping now.
I'm so tired, my eye is tearing.


I thought i can finally have a whole day to rest and to just to laze at home this Saturday. I was wrong! Eeks! Going to school for the SINDA Excellence. A month ago, i thought it would be nice to do some duty during the 3 weeks of attachment.

I am shaggedz.

9th October coming soon!
and 10th October, what do i do? I have Work Assignment / Out with new found friends / Chalet with CLS people and the next day would be Wedding & Work Assignment.

and that last week of holiday before school starts, i have it all planned out!
GO OUT WITH PEOPLE!
I MISS MY FRIENDS!

I feel disconnected with the outside world of my friends. I'm too lazy/tired to reply sms-es or to return missed calls. and of course, i'm too tired to do the proposal!

Why are you still in my dreams?

“ Music speaks what cannot be expressed, soothes the

mind and gives it rest, heals the heart and makes it

whole, flows from heaven to the soul. ”

- Uknown

Hello Kidney!
and so the picture says it. My ward kinda specializes in renal cases and sowhathaveyou.


i want to say..


the past two days have been G R E A T!
and so i conclude,
I very very much enjoy my attachment!


Well of course, minus the negativities like being treated invisible, being looked down upon doctors/staff nurses, doing things that i would never do before and all.

but!
I feel a sense of satisfaction. Although it has been what, a few days only and i feel a bond with the patients i have been taking care of. Some are mean, some are funny, some are cute, some are pitiful. While some are really in need of care.

It feels so good to hear the patients say 'Thank you' to you though they are weak when they said it and it sounds so sincere. It feels good to see them smile at you with appreciation. It feels good they trust you to care for them. It feels good that i am building rapport with them.

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On Wednesday i was on morning shift. and i was shagged like shitz. The next two days which was Thursday and today, Friday, i was on afternoon shift. Did i mention that i love afternoon shifts?
I get to wake up late, get to reach on time, the workload is manageable comparable to in the morning and lastly, it is so cooling to go home at night!

and OMG!
THERE ARE HANDSOME AND HOT DOCTORS!
yes, handsome!
but i would like to smack the files on their faces one day. They're kinda proud and haughty.
Doctor so what? I am a nurse!


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Building rapport.

'I think I felt a tinge of "nurse-ness" in me today. It really is quite fulfilling to see the patients under your care being discharged, albeit a little sad because you have already developed a bond with them.'

Jeanette

I agree with her. I feel sad that i might not be able to see the patients again after the weekend because they might be discharged already. But on the other hand, i feel happy for them that they can be discharged already. I'm gonna miss them.

“Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let the pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.”

"Loves are like empires: when the idea they are founded on crumbles, they, too, fade away."

Minda Kundera

"For my part i know nothing with certainty, but the sight of the stars make me dream."

Vicent Van Gogh

" when least expected, you came. "

many faces in and out of my life; some will last, some will be just now and then. life is a series of hellos and goodbyes, and now it's time for goodbye again.

goodbye, everyone.
goodbye EC0815.

hello, new beginning.
and to the future, unknown.

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i guess, by then everyone would have known by now. though i didn't want many to know at first. only wanting to have a few close people to know about it beforehand. but heck, word of mouth spreads fast. i thought i was discreet, apparently not, haha! i guess it'll come as a shock to hear about it? cause i was shocked myself, with what i had done. people must be thinking that i've gone mad somewhere in my head. but maybe, certainly i found my direction? it'll make me a happier person, and a better prepared one for poly life at least.

i had a 1001 things to talk about when i'm away from my laptop or anywhere with internet connection. i'll always be thinking of what i'll blog about. here i am, trying to figure out what i was trying to express myself. haha, must old age. OMG IT'S MY LAST YEAR AS A TEEN. haha.

ANYWAY.
just to make it short.

• it feels weird not to go to school. and weird to have a really looooooooooooong holiday when my peers are muggin and slugging through school and exams.
  
• while i'm slugging myself out at work which is stressful manzxz!
• i hate my work.
• i miss school life.
• and i miss my friends.

I WANNA GO SHOPPING.
(i'm so random, haha!)

but, yeah.
i'll miss you guys, somehow.
maybe.
though i was rather bitter.
oh wells.

thanks for the 6 months we had, and the memories, the laughters, the "bullying/teasing" and everything else.

all the best.