Of the ordinary & the extraordinary.

a cup of hot chocolate, great music and the cooling night is just perfect for one to sit down and do some studying. that's what i did, after another night of strolling around the neighbourhood. this time, accompanied by brother & sis.

but on the other hand, music sucks in a way that it makes you feel all nostalgic and brings about emotions. it kinda made me feel nostalgic, and empty in a way. nostalgic, because i miss everyone else whom i was close too, and had lost touch with. i always blame myself for being bad when it comes to keeping touch with friends despite the advanced in technology where we can just say hello to a friend in a matter of seconds. much more when it comes to sending an email or replying smses, it will take me time to persuade myself to do it. Tsk tsk! There was a time, when a good friend migrated the U.S. when we were just 9 years old and a few months after she migrated, she had wrote and sent me letters twice, to which i had not replied. I wonder how she is now. It's been what, 11 years?! Teehee.

i feel empty, because it seems like everyone is moving forward yet i'm kinda stuck here. like time is on a standstill? empty, because it feels like something is missing. Like a big part i'm missing out on. It's a mystery i'm trying to unlock.

Well, i kinda miss the days too when Bethany was still here and those heart to heart talks we used to have. and i wonder how's she doing now, hope she could come visit us all here again!

and till now, i'm disappointed still. i treasure friendships, despite not keeping in touch, i do. but, whatever happened to being friends till we're old with white hair? i know it's been so long already. i have always regarded you as someone whom i have so much respect for and admired of, and of course, as a good friend. i've tried to be there when you needed. but.. it seems like i don't know you anymore..


i don't know, i think i'm only harping on these thoughts while everyone is all moving on. i should too.

and i'm not feeling emo. i'm just putting my thoughts into words. i always have plans to say out my thoughts and all, but the moment i do so, the thoughts & feelings are no longer valid. HAH!