It is a nice Sunday afternoon but here i am, super damn pissed off.
and hungry.

Why?

Number one.
Last year, Bethany had sent a nice package or a small box of sweets, chewing gum with a nice card/note wich she always had nicely written and done. and she asked me to help her collect her Testimonial on her behalf. Which i did, took from Queenstown recently.

My point is, THAT SMALL BOX IS NOWHERE TO BE FOUND! Why?! My dad had thrown it from away thinking there is nothing in that box. I don't know why the hell the "househusband" went to clean my room and threw it away. My mom, the real housewife don't even mess with my stuff!

This was how the conversation went:

Me: Have you seen the box that Bethany had sent me?
Dad: What box?
Me: You know, that small box with the sweets and some papers inside?
Dad: (Looking guilty and stares blankly) Oh, that. I think i threw it away already.

FFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

Number two.
*Deleted!*

I am in such a foul mood now.
ROAR!

i dont want to work.
i don't want to.

i don't want to.
i dont want to.


but then again,
i'll admit defeat just like that?

there are so many things that i wanna blog about and share my thoughts. but right now, when i shouldn't even be here, i just feel like sharing some thoughts.

there are two kinds of people which disgust me.

firstly, they are the kind of people who are ungrateful. you do something for them, you give make the effort to make something nice or buy to give them something, and all i want to hear is a thank you. yet, sadly i don't hear anything like it.

but those kind of people are not that bad. i think the other kind of people which disgust me most is people who are unwilling to say sorry when they are in the wrong. these kind of people, i think that they have too much pride in themselves. too much pride in oneself that they are unwilling to accept that they are in the wrong or unwilling to give in to say a word of apology to the other party.

is saying thank you such a hard word to say? is saying sorry likewise, hard to say? although it might seem a small tiny issue, but to me it means a lot. it's two simple to words, but they mean big thing. the significance of one's sincerity.

and no, i'm not trying to say that i'm angry that someone did not say thank you and then didn't say sorry. no, i dont mean that. that's not my point.

the point is, really,
it questions me.
maybe that's why john elton sings the song sorry seems to be the hardest word?


and oh, i'm also not referring to anyone in particular.
hah.