will chords that were broken vibrate once more?
i had posted this question of mine some time ago, and it still rings in my head. reason being is that i'm still not over the issues and the changes that has taken place. i know i'm someone who reads deeply into things that takes place and so some might say, yes i'm sensitive. i'm very much affected by it, though i try not to.
maybe i have some unsaid words which should have been told, maybe i did not really treasure the times we had, maybe i'm just too plain sensitive.but it somehow made me feel caught in between, sandwhiched. but really, i just really want everything to be back the way it was, and the way we were. i just so wish all this, the the issues between both of you did not take place at all because it led on to another issue and drags on.. it broke apart what we once shared, it brought about sensitivities and uncertainties in us and the people around us. can't we just sit and talk and smile at one another and say hey, let's make a fresh start shall we?
firstly to you
i'm someone who'd keep quiet and isolate myself from the people around me when i'm pissed. i wasn't really angry at first, i just didn't feel like talking. which kinds of explain how another issue started. yes i can't control emotions well, i shouldn't have made it worse when you tried to make things work out. bad timing i guess? i was still pissed off and had influences of negativities. but after all this that had happened and the cold shoulders i give, i'm willing to work things out. like i once said, it takes to hands to clap. i just hope you'll feel the same way too you know. cause i'd never once thought this would happen and i wished it didn't ever happen at all. you know who you are.
and you
i may not know what really had happened, i may not really know what words were exchanged between both of you and to another party, but really i see no point in what you're trying to say. no one is benefiting from it, including yourself. are you sure you want to let this, this issue and i'm afraid to say- your ego, overpower you yourself and the friendship you both had? i'm not trying to justify anything, but it wouldn't have happened if some words were not said and emotions a little, a little controlled. you're pushing some people away. i know, i'm not saying anything much to you till now, but i'll hope you'll come to realise things which you should have and look at things at another perspective point of view.
lastly, to you too
and lastly, i shouldn't have gotten angry with you, maybe i was a little sensitive, maybe i was blinded by anger for i blamed you for something which had happened. i guess it also started cause i blamed you and i didnt want to give you attitude that's why i didnt talk to you. i didnt really know what to do. i guess i've misunderstood things and did not try to understand why things had happened this way? but yah, i shouldnt have treat you this way. er, sorry? i've been wanting to talk to you, but dont know how to start. heehee.
those were my unsaid words to the three people i should have told all this to. for some, there were too much words exchanged, words left unsaid, many 'sorrys' said. but did we actually put our words into action and make the effort to clear uncertainties and work things out to make everything alright again? i know for sure i did not put my words into action myself. i'm doing my best now. let's all make it work shall we? i'm tired of all this. i don't want that only the pictures we took and the memories we had are all that is left of our friendship. i pine for the good times.
and i don't want to be the only one holding one to it.
omg, i know i sound so emotional. this has to be the first time i've opened things out like this so openly. but ahh i let it all out! i dont care if i set tongues to start wagging. this is the only way i know i've figured out to reach to you guys, cause if i do it the way i know how... er i dont know?
maybe i have some unsaid words which should have been told, maybe i did not really treasure the times we had, maybe i'm just too plain sensitive.but it somehow made me feel caught in between, sandwhiched. but really, i just really want everything to be back the way it was, and the way we were. i just so wish all this, the the issues between both of you did not take place at all because it led on to another issue and drags on.. it broke apart what we once shared, it brought about sensitivities and uncertainties in us and the people around us. can't we just sit and talk and smile at one another and say hey, let's make a fresh start shall we?
firstly to you
i'm someone who'd keep quiet and isolate myself from the people around me when i'm pissed. i wasn't really angry at first, i just didn't feel like talking. which kinds of explain how another issue started. yes i can't control emotions well, i shouldn't have made it worse when you tried to make things work out. bad timing i guess? i was still pissed off and had influences of negativities. but after all this that had happened and the cold shoulders i give, i'm willing to work things out. like i once said, it takes to hands to clap. i just hope you'll feel the same way too you know. cause i'd never once thought this would happen and i wished it didn't ever happen at all. you know who you are.
and you
i may not know what really had happened, i may not really know what words were exchanged between both of you and to another party, but really i see no point in what you're trying to say. no one is benefiting from it, including yourself. are you sure you want to let this, this issue and i'm afraid to say- your ego, overpower you yourself and the friendship you both had? i'm not trying to justify anything, but it wouldn't have happened if some words were not said and emotions a little, a little controlled. you're pushing some people away. i know, i'm not saying anything much to you till now, but i'll hope you'll come to realise things which you should have and look at things at another perspective point of view.
lastly, to you too
and lastly, i shouldn't have gotten angry with you, maybe i was a little sensitive, maybe i was blinded by anger for i blamed you for something which had happened. i guess it also started cause i blamed you and i didnt want to give you attitude that's why i didnt talk to you. i didnt really know what to do. i guess i've misunderstood things and did not try to understand why things had happened this way? but yah, i shouldnt have treat you this way. er, sorry? i've been wanting to talk to you, but dont know how to start. heehee.
those were my unsaid words to the three people i should have told all this to. for some, there were too much words exchanged, words left unsaid, many 'sorrys' said. but did we actually put our words into action and make the effort to clear uncertainties and work things out to make everything alright again? i know for sure i did not put my words into action myself. i'm doing my best now. let's all make it work shall we? i'm tired of all this. i don't want that only the pictures we took and the memories we had are all that is left of our friendship. i pine for the good times.
and i don't want to be the only one holding one to it.
omg, i know i sound so emotional. this has to be the first time i've opened things out like this so openly. but ahh i let it all out! i dont care if i set tongues to start wagging. this is the only way i know i've figured out to reach to you guys, cause if i do it the way i know how... er i dont know?
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