Of the ordinary & the extraordinary.

Dear Suane,

i'm so disappinted with you.

What happened to you? You have lost yourself, immersing yourself into the worldly. Where are you, who was once so focused and cherished the people around you? You are now taking things so much for granted. and being complacent and not caring about anything. What happened to doing things you used to love and do? Why have you become so anti-social, pushing the people away who are close to you?

You talk about your new found passion and your no regrets for the new path you've chosen. Then why are you being so complacent and not doing your best for your it? Discipline is what you need, Suane. and not excuses to yourself, you'll only have yourself to blame. Don't be a disappointment to yourself.

and i'm sorry, for abusing your health. I stay up late, sleeping just a few hours a day with no compensation for the few hours i sleep. ignoring the fact that you'll have rashes all over when your immunity system is down. Sometimes, you feel your liver hurts, but you still ignore your health. and stop taking panadol with ice lemon tea when the headaches come!

oh suane, you have to learn to stop and feel your emotions. sometimes you try to ignore and forget the not-so-nice feelings you have. you run away from your problems without facing it. like what your friends say, don't keep everything to yourself.

Oh i'm sorry suane for being such an undisciplined person. I am sorry i have been abusing my health, and been a disappointment to you. Do something about yourself and stop living like a walking zombie.

have a change.

yours truly,
Suane.